In A Hopeless Place

It’s been a while since I felt like this. It’s weird, it’s almost like I miss feeling this way. Hurts, but I like it. Feels more like a relief actually, I have my heart back again. It’s sad how I actually have to wait for my emotions to surface before actually feeling them. Honestly, slitting my wrists would be a less painful way. Ok, I exaggerate, can you blame me though? 

I’m getting more and more numb to my emotions though. It’s scary. I hope it never reaches the point where I’m just completely blank. And empty.